Plotting my return

Time has flown by since I wrote last; the school years is almost over, 2010 is almost 1/4 complete and the world is still topsy turvy.  I have just completed my first official day of spring break doing very little at all.  I did manage to accomplish a few dishes and a load of laundry, looked at my options for a new phone, checked on the tax return and made some dinner. 

I'm going to try writing a post at least once a week now that things have hopefully settled down some.  Life has brought many changes since my last post in November. 

*Our home purchase was finalized in December (with too much drama and stress, but we got it done!)
     >The heating/air conditioning was upgraded in January & we started painting the interior
     >Moved in first of February
     >Still not unpacked or finished painting
*New job has been very stressful & overwhelming at times
     >Instructional assistant decided to 'do her own thing' rather than discuss with me solutions
     >Multiple duties of RSP/SDC and RTI are too much; had to reconsider group sizes & structures
     >Lack of 'drill sergeant' voice/demeanor has continued to make it difficult to control class

         *Have requested assistance, principal very understanding & willing to help (understands I'm just not the 'drill sergeant' type)

*Family relationships have been much better; there have been bumps here and there but they are getting along better.  Although now he complains that I am much more bossy now.  I guess it's ok to get stronger in my interactions with her but not with him.  Aahh well, rough for him - if he wants me to have more backbone then it's going to apply in all areas.

*Had over week long visit from step-son, his girlfriend & her son.  Great visit, can't wait to see them again!

*Turned 40 without anyone noticing.  The 40 part anyway, most people who asked were shocked, thought I was 'much younger'.

*Finally got a new pair of Burks & am getting two favorite pair repaired/reconditioned.

(Music plays softly in the background as rain drums on the roof and wind plays the chimes on the porch)

*Had mamogram/ultrasound; they found a couple of cysts again so have to go back in 6 months; doctor wants me to see specialist

*Haven't lost weight, worked out or changed eating habits - still on the 'To Do' list

*Two weeks of spring break to get :
    >painting
    >unpacking
    >lesson planning
    >gardening
    >and various other projects
done.

I'm tired just thinking about it all...

Well, that has been life, in a nut shell, since November.  I haven't written anything that didn't have to do with work since December and am ready to express.  No writing AND not seeing a counselor is just too much.  I do much better with both but neither has been near disasterous.  Poor JT even said something the other day, just as I was starting to.  I told him that I was really feeling the difference - not seeing her.  He asked why, since we have been talking.  He is the only person I have to talk to besides my mother and I can't talk to either one of them about some things.  I don't seem to have a best friend that I can call up or meet up with for 'girl talk'.  Like I even know what that is really; I just don't know what to call it.  Basically, I still don't feel comfortable telling John every little think that bothers me, irritates me, makes me angry, hurts my feelings, etc.  That is what I use my counselor for - to talk about all the things that I don't feel like I have any control over at home and don't feel I have someone I can talk to about.

Am I the only one who is in this position?  Do you share ALL with your spouse?  Do you have a friend you can debrief with?